I knew that it was going to be a little different having a typical baby after getting used to Logan over the last year and a half. I first noticed how strong Aubrey is. I didn't think Logan wasn't strong when he was a newborn, but I was told his muscle tone was pretty good. It did take him a long time to gain good control of his head. I am just realizing now how low his muscle tone really was, and is. I am sure his doctors didn't want to discourage us at first.
Logan's milestones came very slowly at first. There were times when I thought he would never progress. I know that Aubrey will move right along with her milestones and I won't feel as much pressure to help her. With Logan, each milestone has taken much more practice and effort on his part. It doesn't seem fair. He has worked so hard when typical babies just gain skills with what seems like no effort at all.
I have a fear that Aubrey will just blow by Logan in no time. Instead, my hope is that Aubrey will push Logan to develop his skills, but I don't want her to leave him behind. I know I also have to face the reality.
One more thing, I feared that it would be hard to give each child the attention they deserve. Devin and Aubrey are always grabbing my attention, but Logan has so much patience and will wait for me to come to him. I want him to speak up! It's hard to remember to give him as much attention. I feel horrible about this, but I am going to make a point to give him all of the time I can. I can't wait until he can tell me exactly what he wants or is thinking.